Category: Faith

When The World Breaks Your Heart – It’s Okay

I sat there watching the forest shine in the tender, bright afternoon sun and I couldn’t help but wonder, how often I had been here — watching the beauty of God unfold around me while my heart was breaking. It seems that this happens often lately, like I am barely able to catch my breath between the breaking of my heart. I knew that moment so well. The one when the world stills for a moment, when time stops and the world quiets down. It is in the quiet of those moments that you heart the sound of your heart breaking, the echo of the pain loud.

I keep thinking if I should tell you a story of a year of heartbreak. But even now I wonder if I am telling this story too soon. It is, after all, a story of a year of two break-ups, of abuse of all kinds, of witnessing the unexpected divorce of one’s parents, of watching a sister’s health crumble down, of watching loved ones walk away from the Lord. It has been a year of many unexpected broken moments.

Even now, I watch the glorious light pierce through the moment of silence like a reminder of hope. The echo of the pain is loud; the wounds are still open and I wonder, how much a heart can hold. But the truth is that even now, I sit here with a heart that has been held together by the One who made it. After all this I can still say: He was here with me. He is here with me now.

When The World Breaks Your Heart - It's Okay

This is a heart-breaking world

Friend, what broke your heart? What did you lose? Did you lose a loved one — a family member or a close friend? Did you lose the baby, the job, the house, the opportunity you had been praying for? Were you rejected, betrayed? Did he break up with you, walk away for someone else? Did you watch your dream, your reality fall apart because of circumstances you never saw coming?

Maybe right now it feels like your heart gets broken again and again. I know, friend. I am walking there too. Or maybe it is the same pain, the one that stretches you thin as the wounds keep reopening time and time again. I am with you there, friend. It seems so painful, these wounds never healing and turning into scars. Maybe this was unexpected, the surprise accompanying the pain making it all the greater. I know the pain, the way it pierces through your heart.

I am sorry, friend. I so wish I could take away your pain. But I know God is doing something great behind all this.

“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28)

God can carry your pain

It comes with every season of heartbreak, this question: how do I live with a broken heart? Do I have what it takes to carry with me a heart that is so bruised and hurt? Most often, the echo of pain drowns all the answers. I never asked the question why. For some reason I am like that. But I worry, and I keep worrying until I am reminded of the sin of worrying.

“Hearts are broken in ten thousand ways, for this is a heart-breaking world; and Christ is good at healing all manner of heart-breaks.” (Charles Spurgeon)

Friend, I can tell you this. No matter how your heart hurts right now, Christ is able and willing to heal your heart. He can hold your broken heart together, gently in His scarred hands when it all feels like it is coming apart. He can do this because His heart knows the pain and brokenness so well. In all, He loves you just the same. You might feel like He does not love you. It might feel like He is a thousand miles away. But I keep thinking of the broken read to Calvary, the weight of the heavy cross on the shoulders of Jesus — and I know, He can carry my pain. He can carry your pain, too.

“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.” (Romans 15:13 NLT)

You are not alone.

When God Tells You To Wait

Has God ever told you to wait?

When God Tells You To Wait

My pastor shared from Luke 5 the other day, a message that my weary heart greatly needed. How the fishermen were by the Sea of Galilee, washing their nets when they met with Jesus. They were not catching fish; they were not in the midst of great ministry. Instead, they were in the process of preparing by washing and stretching their nets, to make sure they could keep catching fish with these nets. They were in the midst of the mundane and ordinary when Jesus saw them.

“So it was, as the multitude pressed about Him to hear the word of God, that He stood by the Lake of Gennesaret, and saw two boats standing by the lake; but the fishermen had gone from them and were washing their nets.” (Luke 5:1-2)

I can’t help but wonder, if these fishermen were frustrated and a bit hopeless. They had been out all night, and yet they had not caught any fish. Here they were, washing their nets to prepare to go out again — wondering if they would be able to catch some fish. Wondering if they would be facing failure once again.

That is what waiting often feels like to us — failure. But waiting does not mean failure. Just as it was important for the fishermen to care for their nets so they would not break, it is important for us to go through and grow through waiting seasons so that we are ready for God to use us for His kingdom’s sake.

Why God Tells Us To Wait

Sometimes, it can be difficult for us to see why we would need to wait. We have already been waiting for years — whether it is for a dream to happen, a job, a spouse, health, a baby… We wait, and sometimes the waiting just about breaks our hearts. Our hearts ache when we see others getting the one thing we have prayed for, waited for years now. Every now and then, our hopes get up — only to realize a while later that we are still in the waiting season. It hurts, and it’s hard to explain why.

Oswald Chambers says, “God gives us the vision, then He takes us down to the valley to batter us into the shape of the vision, and it is in the valley that so many of us faint and give way. Every vision will be made real if we will have patience.”

Our faithfulness is tested with the small things. It is in the washing and stretching of nets, rather than when we are catching fish. It is in the mundane, little things. The things that do not even seem to matter much. That is where our faithfulness is tested. That is where our hearts are tested. Just think of the fishermen. There they were, washing their nets when they met Jesus. They had been fishing all night and had caught nothing. Surely they felt the hurt of shame because of that.

What To Do While You Wait

What do you do when you wait? How do you get through this season of waiting that feels so long?

“When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.” But Simon answered and said to Him, “Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net.” And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking.” (Luke 5:4-6)

God makes us in the seasons of waiting. He speaks His truth, until it is weaved into the strings of our hearts. He tests our hearts, our obedience, our trust — and most of the time, this is painful for us. The pressure on our heart and soul is heavy, unrelenting at times. Yet this is where the unnecessary bits are washed away, where our faith is purified.

In the waiting season, remain faithful with the little things. Those everyday things that feel like they matter very little? They actually matter greatly. In choosing obedience now, God is working a beautiful thing in your heart. He is creating that steady faith in your soul, the one that trusts His goodness through all the seasons and circumstances. Before you know it, He is placing you in that boat, your nets breaking because of the great number of fish.

So hold on, friend. Have patience. God is shaping you right now, right in this season — and great things are coming.

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Daring To Dream

Do you have a dream that you have kept to yourself for quite the while now? That one dream you wish would come true, yet you are not sure if it is what God has meant for you?

Dare to Dream

I carried a dream in the secret folds of my heart for years. Maybe it was a desire more than a dream, a wishful desire that remained throughout the years, though I rarely spoke about it. It wasn’t because I was ashamed of the dream. It was mainly because I was not sure if it was in God’s plan for my life. I wanted to lead a women’s Bible study, to equip women to pursue a better relationship with God.

I knew it was not a bad desire or dream to have, no. But I was not sure if it was what God had purposed for me, a wretched sinner, to do. Maybe you know exactly what I am talking about. Maybe this is the place you have found yourself in, as well. That quiet dream in the folds of your heart, the one you feel with every beat of your heart — but you are afraid to set out to do, in case it is not God’s will. I know that fear, friend. I know it so well.

Don’t Let Fear Freeze Your Dreams

What I have learned during these years, is that it takes courage to dare to dream. Fear so easily takes our hearts captive. It runs through our veins and freezes our hopes before we even have set out to pursue them. And the worst part is, that we let fear do so. We believe the lies that fear whispers to our soul at night. We think we are not worthy of such a dream that is in our hearts. Our past and our past failures define us, before we even try to set out to see if this is what God would have for us.

But that is never the will of God.

“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.” (Romans 12:2)

Our past successes and failures do not matter when we give our lives and our hearts to God. He can use us for His glory, no matter what we have done or where we have been. He can also use others, if we choose to not be part of what He wants to work in our lives and the lives of those around us. God’s glory is not dependant on our skills or talents. Yet, God has given us these beautiful dreams — ones that flourish when we choose to trust God and trust His goodness to us.

Dare To Dream

It has been years since I first dreamed of teaching a women’s Bible study. I have carried this dream with me through so many seasons, the hopeless and hope-filled ones. Now, in this season of changes in life and busy schedules — I sit down with a very small group of girls once every two weeks to study through the book of Ruth. I think we are still a long way off from seeing whether this will bring forth any fruit. Yet I can see that my heart is changing, that this dream has finally come to life, carried by the prayers I prayed over the years, the hopeless and hope-filled ones.

Friend, God has given you this dream for a reason. Whether it is for you to do at some point, or to join someone else’s ministry in prayer — God has given it to you for a reason. It might be that this dream needs to be covered in prayer for years, in the quietness of your heart. Or it might be that all it needs is surrendering to God, both your heart and your life.

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” (Isaiah 41:10)

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Summer Bucket List 2017

Do you make bucket lists for the summer for yourself? Since summer has finally arrived, I thought now would be a good time to make a summer bucket list for myself. I find that often the summer goes by way too quickly, and as I have been studying during the summers for the last three years, it is easy for the summer to go by and leave me feeling like I didn’t really enjoy summer to the fullest. Which is why I decided to create a bucket list for this year.

To be honest, my summer will be fairly short and it will go by quickly. I will be writing my Master’s thesis for most of the time. I will also be working on a few Bible camps. I’m also starting my speech therapist internship in early August. I’m sure most of August is spent on trying to adjust to the internship and working as a speech therapist full time. There is also some time set aside for traveling in July, as there is a Christian Conference coming up that I’m attending. So there will be quite a few things that will keep me busy this summer!

This bucket list is made of the things I love the most about summer; like going on a picnic and enjoying the nature. The Finnish nature is absolutely beautiful in the summertime, which is why I want to make sure to stop and enjoy it.

Summer Bucket List 2017

Summer Bucket List 2017

  1. Have a picnic.
  2. Visit a national park.
  3. Go to the beach.
  4. Swim in the ocean.
  5. Movie marathon.
  6. Read at least 5 books.
  7. Go stargazing.
  8. Work on my lettering skills.
  9. Visit a Farmer’s market.
  10. Explore a new town.
  11. Go out for frozen yogurt.
  12. Go berry picking.
  13. Travel.
  14. Pick wild flowers.

Have you made a bucket list for this summer? If yes, what is on your list? I’d love to hear!

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