So all your life you have been wondering, can anyone really love you for who you are. If they knew who you really are, exactly what you have done, what you have said — surely they wouldn’t love you. You are not enough, you are too much. Never just right.
So you hide.
The thing about hiding places is, you are the only one there. When you look around, you see only the things of the past — your shame, your mistakes, your fears. Pain. You deem yourself worthless, beyond hope; and forget that others do not. The longer you hide, the scarier the world and being vulnerable becomes. Day by day, it becomes easier to believe no one can ever, possibly love you.
“But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine. Since you were precious in My sight, you have been honored, and I have loved you.” (Isaiah 43:1,4)
This I know — it is not easy to bare your soul. To let anyone see your failures and impossibilities, your fears and weaknesses; to let anyone witness the messy and ugly parts of your heart and still believe, hope, that they will somehow love you. But please – please – hear me out. It is difficult for anyone to really love the true you if you don’t let them see the all of it.
The old things have passed away. You have been redeemed. God knows your shame and mistakes, your sinful heart, your hurt and pain — and He calls you precious in His sight. He loves you. Oh, does He love you.
“The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.” (Jeremiah 31:3)
So come now. Come out of your hiding place. Take refuge in His strength, and trust His everlasting love. Faith and fear cannot co-exist — so let go of your fear and choose faith. Find forgiveness, find peace and freedom. It takes courage. Oh, precious soul, does it take so much courage. It would be easier to keep hiding, so that nothing would hurt and you could walk away feeling like you still hold the pieces by yourself. But when you surrender yourself to Him who is our place of safety, who holds your heart and gives beauty for ashes — only then will you find yourself.
The hard part is, being vulnerable will hurt because there will always be someone who says the wrong thing, does the hurtful thing. Yet, the more you let people see of yourself the more they have to love — faults and all. It will be so difficult because you would like to be perfect and you never are. But this we know, that the Lord loves us with an everlasting love, and we are His people. We are not to love people by the standard of perfection but rather by the standard of His grace, sufficient and unchanging for all of us.
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