The Gift Of Four Hours

The Gift Of Four Hours

In a season of busyness, God has given me the gift of four hours every week. Two hours every Friday, two hours every Sunday in my car.

On Fridays, those two hours stretch endlessly before me as everything in me is longing to be home already. Home can never come soon enough. It is a silent longing inside of me, one that I don’t necessarily even notice during the week. But on the way home, to what I know is good and comfortable – I notice it.

I have been thinking about the gift of these two hours on Fridays. How I have been reminded that this is the way we all live while we are still here on earth. We live, we take our residence here – but we do not belong. Our home is not here. There is that little something, in the way we breathe more freely and it feels like our hearts expand when we are in the presence of the Lord. That, is our reminder of our home in heaven. Our days are clouded with darkness here and there. Some seasons we seem to walk through the valley. Other seasons, we are only reminded of the darkness when we see our shadows fall behind us. Still we know, we need more light. This is good and comfortable; but there is something better waiting.

On Sundays, I spend those two hours in awe. Home, family, church family and fellowship – these are all things that fill my heart in ways I cannot describe. Safe, secure, loved; always beyond what I deserve. I drive, my mind on the sermon and the ways God is changing my heart right now. Am I happy with how much I love these people of mine right now? How can I reach out? How can I love them better?

I look at the beautiful scenery of the countryside, the beauty of God often leaving me with a heart leaping with joy. I am a failure; I know I do not deserve this. Yet God has poured out His love and grace. His love is expanding before me in the wheat fields turning gold, in the leaves slowly taking on yellow and orange as autumn season falls upon us. There is something in the way the golden sun graciously, gently turns this scenery into art. I cannot help but wonder, how He does the same with my heart. This little heart of mine, so messy and mundane – yet He wants it. Like He wants yours. Did you know that? He wants your heart. He thinks it is beautiful.

These are such mundane things, these two hours every Friday and every Sunday. I drive because I want to be somewhere else, because I need to be somewhere else. This is the season of life God has me in: doing an internship two hours up north. I go sometimes with a grudging heart because I have a hard time not attending church twice a week. I even cried over it just the other day. But I am growing, as different and hard as this season is for me.

“Oh, that men would give thanks to the Lord for His goodness, and for His wonderful works to the children of men! For He satisfies the longing soul, and fills the hungry soul with goodness.” (Psalm 107:8-9)

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  • Hi Ronja, I just loved the conclusion you came to at the end of this post, that you're growing, even though this is a difficult and challenging season for you. God definitely does pour out his kindness and mercy to us, even though we are so undeserving. You have a beautiful perspective to look above and beyond this time to see how he's growing your heart! Love this and love you! xo

    • Ronja

      Valerie, thank you so much! You always have so much encouragement for me. :) Thank you for this kindness and these words. Be blessed, dear friend!

  • Donna Reidland

    What a beautiful post, Ronja. I love it when we can take natural things in our lives and connect them to spiritual truths. How like what Jesus did as He walked along and did life with those around Him. Thanks for sharing.

    • Ronja

      Thank you so much, Donna! I know I need to practice it more, seeing the hands of God in everything and everywhere. I think when we choose to see it and pray for God to open our eyes, we will see Him everywhere. Thank you for your kindness, Donna. God bless you!

  • Bettie G

    Hi Ronda, I'm blessed to be your neighbor over at #TuneInThursday this week! What a beautiful thought from the Lord as you travel home each week. Truly we are longing for a home beyond this one where we dwell, aren't we? Thank you for this beautiful reminder, in the midst of seasons that feel so overwhelming here! Blessings to you!

    • Ronja

      Thank you for your sweet words, Bettie! Truly I have been blessed by this reminder of how our home is not here. God bless you!

  • welcomeheart

    I love writing and thinking and reading about this is not our real home - that inward longing just points to the truth of the gospel, God's bigger story, and His preparation for you and me. I can ruin my present by worrying about the leaving of my present - looks like you aren't doing that - but it's okay to cry, too!!

    • Ronja

      I love how everything everything points us to God -- and His hands are truly seen in everything. Thank you for visiting here and taking the time to comment! God bless you!

  • I think the point that you make about learning and growing in the difficult is spot on! It's interesting how we so often try to very hard to get out of the difficult seasons but those are actually the seasons that God helps us grow so much more.

    • Ronja

      Thank you, Rosanna! It really is just as you said. We try so hard to get out of the seasons and worry over those. But God is growing us and creating beautiful things in those exact seasons. Thank you for taking the time to visit and comment here! God bless you!

  • Karen

    I think that we can turn even the mundane things into times with Jesus if we look for him in them. I've been driving back and forth to eye doctor's appointments for some several weeks now and instead of dreading the trips and all the time it takes, I've been turning the trip in to alone time with God, so even though I don't like the appointments, i can enjoy meditating on Jesus in the process. Thanks for your post!

    • Ronja

      Yes, Karen! I love how you spend those trips down to the eye doctor's! I love that in every moment, we can turn to Jesus and He is there with us and for us. Thank you for sharing this with me! God bless you!