January has rolled in like it usually does, a wreck of a steamboat just plowing on. I intended to start well, to be the best me I can ever be. Instead, I have been all various levels of sick — from having a cold, to having low blood pressure and fatigue. I think I have been pretty far from the best me (at least I hope so). And that has been surprisingly hard, to be honest.
This winter partly feels like a winter season of my soul. Not necessarily because I feel I am far away from the Lord. But more because the battleground feels so harsh and dry. Like I am fighting through the frozen ground, focused on surviving this season. Or surviving just this day, really.
Then, once again, I was reminded of these seasons of life. How some seasons are like winter, deeply frozen. But then some seasons are like spring, with new life springing forth. And of course, the harvest season will eventually come as well. So maybe for now, we have to deal with our roots trying to push through the hard ground. But it won’t be like that forever.
“Let your roots grow down into Him, and let your lives be built on Him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness.” (Colossians 2:7 NLT)
Give Yourself Grace
So in this season, I am also learning to give myself grace, knowing that it’s okay. It’s okay to not be okay for a while. It’s okay to struggle in the hard seasons, to hurt through the broken ones. This is the season for it.
Like in every season, it is important to keep grounded in God’s Word. Especially so in the hard seasons. It is important to let your roots grow deeper and deeper into Him. Because this is only for a season. Soon, a new thing will come. A new beginning, a new chance, a new person, a new situation, a new place. The Lord knows.
But a new season will come, and that’s why it’s important to hold on to hope. That is why it’s important to see this as only a season as well — and not build our identities on this brokenness. Rather, we are made complete in Him and that is the promise we can hold on to in this place. So give yourself grace now, and breathe for a while. Let yourself hurt for a while, cry for a while, struggle for a while. Give yourself grace in this place, for a new season will come. A new thing will come. And you get to move on.