“Out of the depths I have cried to You, O Lord; Lord, hear my voice! Let Your ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications. I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I do hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than those who watch for the morning— yes, more than those who watch for the morning.” (Psalm 130:1-2, 5-6)
Lately, I have been often reminded that we are fighting a battle even now, that our soul is constantly at war. But walking through that valley of the shadow of death, we know in our hearts what this Psalmist is trying to convey by saying that our soul waits for the Lord more than those who watch for the morning. Because when we are surrounded by darkness in the battle, the morning does not seem to come soon enough and we wait for the morning with all that we are, our soul waits for the light that makes us able to see our surroundings, makes us able to see everything clearly once again.
Yet, it is in those dark depths — when we are absolutely broken and empty; when we have nothing to give to the Lord but our pain and sorrow and doubt and fears — that our prayers are the most real. It is in those deep places, those moments when we are weary and worn, that we give all that is in our hearts to the Lord as we cry out to Him in prayer. What a comfort it is to know that even out of the depths our prayers will rise up to the Lord, and that He will hear the cry that is meant for His ears.
Matthew Henry says that “it is our privilege that in the greatest depths we may cry unto God and be heard.” Even in the silent supplications there is a voice that God will hear, even when we can’t find words to express all that is in our hearts. But He knows.
“My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him. In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.” (Psalm 62:5,7-8)
Expecting God to come to us in love, we wait for His appearing, whatever situation we are in. And if God makes us wait, let us do it with our whole hearts and souls. Let us pour out our hearts to Him, knowing that He is that safe place for us, that place where we are completely surrounded by safety. God is always worth waiting for, whether it is His will or His timing or whatever else we are waiting for — and later on, we will find that God was working something great in us through that period of waiting. He gives beauty for ashes and He can make something absolutely wonderful out of our brokenness now.