when you feel like you are failing
Today, I am bringing back this post from last August. While we are walking through Psalm 142 and learning how to pray in times of distress, I find that often our faith is put to test right after. This is the time the discouragement comes in, and we feel like we are failing beyond hope now. So here, beloved, take courage. Know that God loves you just the same, no matter what you have done or will do, where you have been or are going now.
Sometimes it takes looking at your failures to understand how faithful God is to carry you through. Sometimes it takes seeing just how wrong you have been to finally see how right He can make things. Sometimes it takes losing so very much, maybe what feels like losing it all — to realize that it is only in Christ that we have anything. Sometimes it takes coming to the end of your rope to finally be able to let it all go, and let the Lord work in and through you.
“Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits: who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies” (Psalm 103:2-4)
This is the thought I am trying to wrap my mind around: when God created me, He already knew my sins and my failures, and still He redeemed me worthy. He knew the broken heart and the messy relationships. He knew the irrational fears and the ugly failures. He knew my impossibilities, rebellion, disobedience, and stubbornness. Still He chose me, and this perfect love goes beyond my understanding.
Sometimes it is the hardest thing, to trust His love and grace in order to accept that you have been redeemed. It is so much easier to lose hope, to give up on yourself and think that He has too. Yet, we know that there is redemption in Christ. Our God is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in mercy.
“In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace” (Ephesians 1:7)
So when you are failing, and think you are beyond hope? When you are sure there is no coming back now, that you botched things up too bad? When you look around and all you see is darkness?
Lift up your face and look to God, because His mercies are new every morning. Trust God and trust His Word, because in Him we have redemption. He knows the messy and the ugly parts; He has seen the brokenness and hurt in your heart. Bring all of you to Him; the good and the bad, the weak and the weary. Thank Him for His goodness. Thank Him for His faithfulness. He is here with you, and He is making you new.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” (2 Corinthians 5:17)